It’s true what they say. Seeing someone you love being happy when you are unhappy. The sad thing is, we were the closest of friends. Having to leave her was without doubt one of the hardest things I had to do. I’m happy you are finally smiling and you have someone to cause that disease. Honestly? right now I need you, but I refuse to bring you down to sadness once again now that you have found happiness beyond me. I hope one day you can tell me your story, you are no longer a slow cheetah, I am now the one sinking in wet sand and believe me. You are breaking through..
Tonight I have struggled. I still am struggling to get over this substance. I can’t help but feel like everything and myself is going to die if I don’t get that feeling. I feel so angry and upset that I got myself into this situation that all I care about is that feeling. I really don’t know what is real anymore. Rummaging through my parents’ cupboards hoping there’s something there but no key. I can not get rid of this substance taking over my mind.